My mind and body clench and expand at the thought, the simple thought of just holding someones hand. but i work as a porn star, how fucked up am i the head by now, whats going to happen to me, will i be famous, will i be dust> an this ofvourse the only thinging though my mund 24/7, how much do i for fake it, how much is real, and who decides after that?
people need to stop coming over with molly. i’m a recovering drug addict, i was able to refuse tonight, but this needs to stop, now, fuck them and there free drugs, its just not how i want to live my life anymore goddammit i hope you shitty drug dealers all rot in jail, you are nothing, drug dealing is nothing its a shitty thing to be, and im sick of that label myself, i want to have a clean room, my music, a nice girl, dinners, dates,small parties, hottubbing, this is rediculous, my house is way to good for all these people, im done ranting now. but seriously fuck all of you shitty crackhead addicts .pitiful.
“The first drug used by almost everyone, in almost every instance was either alcohol or tobacco. So why don’t we hear that alcohol and tobacco are a gateway drug? Well, it’s because alcohol and tobacco are multibillion dollar corporations and they make lots of money in our society.”—NORML founder, Keith Stroup (via fuckyeahdrugpolicy)
im about to fly to florida again, im going to make 4400 over the next few days, but its like, for all i baosted about getting to do it, im not really enjoying it, im not shur what about life im really enjoying, maybe i was happier poor.
i cant remember the last time i made a connection, i feel like there grey everywhere,
maybe its just extasy withdrawl, maybe its really pain. all i know is, i hope i go somewhere after this. otherwise id be only purely ashamed.